Wednesday, 30 December 2009

Christmas



Everyone loves Christmas but the nicest thing of Christmas for me is the turkey and potatoes especially the gravy, hmm yummy!

Oh! And the presents too, but it’s a shame that I know that Santa is mummy and papi (my daddy ). I don’t think that Kelvin knows that Santa is the parents, but my sister Nuria says that he knows, but I don't think so. The most important thing at Christmas is spending time with family and friends.

In London they don’t have the three Kings: Caspar, Melchior and Balthasar. My favourite King is Melchior, who gave gold to baby Jesus. Caspar, gave myrr and Balthasar gave frankincense.

                                                                                  By Maxine, aged 8


Tuesday, 15 December 2009

Taming The Tiger

Chinese astrology is a fascinating science. Most Chinese people live obsessively by the horoscope. They would consult astrologers or reference books before selecting a date for an important event. Even if you’re a non believer, the astrological readings can be painfully accurate and sometimes enlightening. For example, after a relationship has ended one may search for answers as to why the relationship broke down etc. You may find that internet compatibility matches provide some insight. Though, too often, we fall into the trap by believing all that we read, and that somehow make pretence that our reasonings are validated.

There are periods in my life, when I gregariously consult astrological charts. Usually before embarking on a relationship and after the relationship had ended. Even if the pre-relationship reading is negative, i.e. the relationship is fated to fail, do I follow the advice? Of course not! I will defy the laws of the celestial skies and convince myself that astrology is a load of bollocks and proceed to engage in courtship. Post-relationship readings, depresses me, as truths had been there black on white. Leading me to say ‘why didn’t I listen?’

Other than predicting your failures in love. Chinese astrology can be a great source of guidance to be harmonious with the environment and those creatures within it. The astrological recommendations combined with Feng Shui, I-Ching, Ku Bau, can prove to be life enriching. Five years ago, I really got into reading about Feng Shui and  for a few months became obsessed with it. Suddenly I started to notice my surroundings on a deeper level: designs of buildings, chairs, sofas, tables, knifes, vases….well basically everything the eye can see. I even applied the laws of Feng Shui to re-arrange the settings in my shop, even to the window displays, and made sure that at every meal the five elements (fire, water, wood, and earth, metal) were present. I became consciously aware that when ever I entered a bar or restaurant, I’d hesitate and cast an over view of the floor to pick the best table. Even if the maitre showed me to a table in which didn’t offer good Feng Shui, I would request another. In bars and cafes where I could choose the table to sit myself, I would sometimes be playing musical chair around different tables until I found a table which felt right. Feng Shui had enriched my life so much; that I wanted shared the gosspals. In the shop many customers received advice of how to improve their homes, their lives, colours they should wear and shouldn’t wear. At one stage, I thought perhaps I could become Feng Shui interior designer. The idea was quickly quashed as I recognised that couldn’t verbalise why particular changes would be beneficial. It just felt right, well to me at least.

Lately, I haven’t been sleeping very well. No matter how many hours I’d slept, during the day I was always tired. Yesterday, I realised that, two months ago, I had turned my bed 90 degrees clockwise so that the headboard faces south. But I- Ching sign recommends that east is my ideal direction. Where was the headboard before? North- East! As consolation, I had moved my office into the East room of the house and I’m facing east. Business has been very smooth since.

Most astrological websites brush on the twelve animals sign giving brief outline of personalities and love compatibilities. Some offer astrological reading combined with the elements. A few websites offer  deep readings combining Chinese astrology with other philosophies, but in exchange for payment. Normally, I don’t like paying with credit card on such pages; however, I did pay for an in depth reading before embarking in the last courtship. The reading I got was quite confusing. As you can see, it combined with western zodiac. The Chinese side, recommended a marriage counsellor, where as on the zodiac reading, stars were literally flying off the computer screen. So which do you believe? At this point I decided that I was more English than oriental and so dived into the relationship. It was a full blown tempest. I can truly say that as I’m Thunder in I-Ching.

The Angel Love Match Scores

Astrology Match            Zodiac Match                Kua Match
-6                                   99                                95

The range of Chinese astrology matching score is from -16 to 16. It’s considered a good match, if the score is equal to or greater than zero. The range of western zodiac score is from 50 to 95. A good match needs a score of 70 or more. Feng Shui Kua Number match is from 60 to 95. If a matching score is equal to 75 or greater, then that’s a good match. Certainly, the ideal match is that Chinese astrology matching score is not negative, western zodiac score is greater than 79 and Feng Shui Kua match is 80 or more.


Your Chinese astrology Match score is -6, which means you Need Marriage Advisors. (If this score is different from the free Fast Match in the website, this is because this report compares the HOUR columns in both of your birth chart.) The western zodiac match score is 99, that means your match is too good to be true. The Feng Shui Kua Number zodiac match score is 95. This score means you two are a wonderful pair.
You pass western Zodiac and Feng Shui matching tests. Both of you should be able to get along. Since you didn't pass the Chinese astrology test, you need more time to understand each other before a closer relationship. You can keep this relationship, because you pass two tests.

So now, I’m thinking, right, forget the astrological sprills and live life as a non believer. However, there’s a tiger prowling around. My astro tells me that I’m the only creature who can tame it, apparently!









Sunday, 6 December 2009

Global Hysteria

For the past decade, debates about carbon emissions contributing to global warming have really been heating up. For the past five years or so, the British government have been showing the terrifying adverts, and the chilling warnings that global warming will be worse than scientitists expect. Increasing hysterical publicity campaigns, our government beseeches to drive less, heat less, and consume less, all in the name of climate change. But people are still not convinced. The urgency which grips politicians around the world seems not to be shared by the general public.

Last month’s leaked emails from the University of East Anglia’s Climatic Research Unit, in which some scientists denied that human activities were responsible for global warming, pretty much affirmed the public’s scepticism. In one corner, outrage really did hit the fan, well at least in the UK, as the leak had been perfectly timed to coincide with the Copenhagen conference next week. I’m not a rocket scientist on the subject of global warming, but have taught 'O' level Natural Economy, so I do have strong view about it. And I do know attempted thought control and  hostility to free speech when I see it.

The truth about global warming is that the debate has many layers and levels. The issues for debate are whether mankind is largely responsible and if so how can we avert carbon emissions. Global temperature is on the rise, this is an undisputed fact and its consequences are easy to see. However, I now have doubt whether humans are responsible for global warming; my conspiratorial mind is inclined to believe the ‘deniers’. I would give a right arm to see those leaked emails and analyse the data. Whether I would understand anything I read or see is beside the point.

At the Copenhagen conference, much attention will be placed on alternative forms of energy and actions for drastic reduction of carbon emissions. However the general consensus will be hard to achieve as the rift between rich and developing nations is immense. China and India are currently responsible for much of the increased carbon emissions. Yet at the same time, the economic growth is lifting millions of people out of proverty. It’s a hard balance to weigh up. What is apparent and agreed by all nations is the sheer cost of reducing carbon emissions. According to the Intergovernment Panel on Climate Change calculated that global tax “starting at $68 could reduce economic output by a staggering 13 per cent by 2100-the equivalent of $40 trillion a year". That is to say, it would cost 50 times the expected damage of global warming. "A further $800 billion spent over the next 90 years solely on mitigating carbon emissions, we would rein in temperature increases by just 0.1 degree C”. When figures are put in such brutal manner, one start to wonder why all the fuss.

It has been put that the smartest way forward would be to increase public funds for research into non-carbon energy and perhaps not rule out geoegineering solutions. Superfreakonomics have suggested that by pumping millions of tons of sulphur dioxide into the stratosphere (operation costs is negligible). At high altitude, it mixes with water vapour and quickly blankets the earth, effectively creating a sunscreen layer, which would cool earth by 0.5 C instantly. Pioneering science, which is still very much in experimental stages, but it could work. I couldn’t abstract any secondary consequences of this brilliant idea, but what comes to my mind is global acid rain. But the simplicity is this solution is ingenious. So why not fund these super-freaks?

So why the hysterical pandemonium by governments? Have they too been misinformed, misguided by scientists? Perhaps, perhaps not! Perhaps the real fear is that wealth will be shifted from West to East. By forcing developing countries to drastically reduce emitting carbon would inevitably result in stunted economic growth.

Friday, 4 December 2009

May Love Blossom in the Midst of Adversary

My brother has been single for donkey years! He  fled the nest when he bought his own pad at the ripe old age of 33. We had hoped that new found independence, and by distancing himself from mum would open up new horizons. However, he still comes home every day; morning, lunch and some times dinner. On one hand, being the only single sibling and first boy, the duty of looking out for mum had been bestowed upon him. On the other hand, the psychological bonds between mum and son can be mind boggling.
Cornflakes, PG Tips and instant noodles are the only things he stocks in his sad, dreary flat. His social life has always been a mystery to us, but we suspect that he spends far too long playing computer games. He has a lucrative job with Credit Suisse, at No 1 Cabot Square, the heart of  Docklands business zone. The area is jammed packed with professionals from all ethnicities, most are young and gorgeous. Finding a mate here wouldn’t be a problem for most. Yet for my brother it is just a place where he works.
His lack of interest and/or failure to find a mate became a central family issue last year. My father summoned friends and family in China to find a suitable mate. My mum and sister matched made with two potential, fresh of the boat, Vietnamese suitors. Yeah, I know. Conflict of interests and values are so differing that I tend to steer clear of family affairs. “He’s probably a closet gay” I suggested. “And if you all stopped pressurizing him, and give him a chance to come out with it, he may be a happier person”. This was my unfounded conclusion taking into account that he’d been single for about 7 years or so.
But guess what? Last weekend, we celebrated my niece’s birthday with a simple meal at home. As we were arriving, an announcement came that my brother had invited his new girl friend!!! Woooohoooo! My younger sister cried out loud “Oh no, why is he’s bringing her home now? He should wait at least a year”. We all knew what she meant by this statement. I laughed my so much that got the stitches.
It’s bad omen to bring your brand new partner to meet my family. From experience, we know that an early introduction would result in a break up before the relationship even got off the ground. Mum and older sister always interfered and bad mouthed who ever came through the front door. My other brother still blames the break up of his marriage due to interference from the family. I sympathize with that.
The protocol of Asian families are so damn ancient and blindly biased that even if one of us brought home the executive director of RBS (lol, sorry couldn’t resist!) or a world leader, they would still find faults. The poor victim’s every word, gesture and movement would be closely monitored and scrutinized. An avalanche of indirect, aggressive persuasion would follow until the relationship ends, and then they would say “Oh, don’t worry; there’s plenty of fish in the sea”.
May, the new girlfriend, is astonishingly pretty. Slim, well groomed and discreet. She had already scored high as she’s a pharmacist. A perfect match for my brother who’s a computer systems boffin.
The whole day went smoothly without any hiccups. May lives in Teddington (next to Twickenham) and we so caught the train together from Waterloo. She’s a pleasant girl with an overwhelming awe of responsibility and maturity about her. She’s a pharmacist, what else would you expect? The good news is that Nuria and Maxine took an instant liking to her, which is an excellent sign in my books. 
During the journey, I asked her how she knew my brother. Strangely, she was stunned by the question and hesitated with eyes widened in disbelieve. My casual question had inadvertently caused momentary distress. After an awkward pause, she swiftly said that they’d met through mutual friends of my older sister. Shit! I thought. Everything and everyone my older sister knows is tainted. I find it hard to believe that someone of May’s calibre would have any association to my sister. But then I could be completely wrong.

My advice to my brother would be to take lots of long haul holidays with May and stay away until they announce the wedding day.

Wednesday, 2 December 2009

Wannabes

Wannabes appear in almost every social layer without reference to its cultural roots. The wannabe himself is mainly a coincidental product of bigotry in combination with success the perverse wannabe met with in fact of a lucky streak or an immoral act.

Because of their narrow attitude to life wannabes can't realize their own incapability and, by mistake, reckon their whole past as the logical consequence of their absolute superiority towards other people.

In other words, those people are severely lacking of self-perception, receive backstrokes rarely and are neither able to revise the reasons for a failure (if occurred) nor for success.

A common indication of a wannabe is an abnormal and exaggerated self-confidence due to his/her utter self-overestimation. Additionally, wannabes are behaving arrogantly and become exuberantly stubborn when they are alluded to their moronic self-perception, while criticism can cause them to overreact.

Wannabes are more often than not egoists, they like deceiving themselves and wannabes don't really care for others they can't profit from.

Finally, a wannabe's loss of reality makes him/her fail anytime and prevents him/her from having a fulfilled life, if he/she will ever become aware of the reality.

Wannabes justify their delusion as dreams.

20th January

 Eve of St Agnes it Wilby!


St Agnes' Eve---Ah, bitter chill it was!

The owl, for all his feathers, was a-cold;
The hare limp'd trembling through the frozen grass,
And silent was the flock in woolly fold:
Numb were the Beadsman's fingers, while he told
His rosary, and while his frosted breath,
Like pious incense from a censer old,
Seem'd taking flight for heaven, without a death,
Past the sweet Virgin's picture, while his prayer he saith.

His prayer he saith, this patient, holy man;
Then takes his lamp, and riseth from his knees,
And back returneth, meagre, barefoot, wan,
Along the chapel aisle by slow degrees:
The sculptur'd dead, on each side, seem to freeze,
Emprison'd in black, purgatorial rails:
Knights, ladies, praying in dumb orat'ries,
He passeth by; and his weak spirit fails
To think how they may ache in icy hoods and mails.

Northward he turneth through a little door,
And scarce three steps, ere Music's golden tongue
Flatter'd to tears this aged man and poor;
But no---already had his deathbell rung
The joys of all his life were said and sung:
His was harsh penance on St. Agnes' Eve:
Another way he went, and soon among
Rough ashes sat he for his soul's reprieve,
And all night kept awake, for sinners' sake to grieve.

That ancient Beadsman heard the prelude soft;
And so it chanc'd, for many a door was wide,
From hurry to and fro. Soon, up aloft,
The silver, snarling trumpets 'gan to chide:
The level chambers, ready with their pride,
Were glowing to receive a thousand guests:
The carved angels, ever eager-eyed,
Star'd, where upon their heads the cornice rests,
With hair blown back, and wings put cross-wise on their breasts.

At length burst in the argent revelry,
With plume, tiara, and all rich array,
Numerous as shadows haunting fairily
The brain, new-stuff'd, in youth, with triumphs gay
Of old romance. These let us wish away,
And turn, sole-thoughted, to one lady there,
Whose heart had brooded, all that wintry day,
On love, and wing'd St Agnes' saintly care,
As she had heard old dames full rnany times declare.

They told her how, upon St Agnes' Eve,
Young virgins might have visions of delight,
And soft adorings from their loves receive
Upon the honey'd middle of the night,
If ceremonies due they did aright;
As, supperless to bed they must retire,
And couch supine their beauties, lily white;
Nor look behind, nor sideways, but require
Of Heaven with upward eyes for all that they desire.

Full of this whim was thoughtful Madeline:
The music, yearning like a God in pain,
She scarcely heard: her maiden eyes divine,
Fix'd on the floor, saw many a sweeping train
Pass by---she heeded not at all: in vain
Came many a tiptoe, amorous cavalier,
And back retir'd; not cool'd by high disdain,
But she saw not: her heart was otherwhere;
She sigh'd for Agnes' dreams, the sweetest of the year.

She danc'd along with vague, regardless eyes,
Anxious her lips, her breathing quick and short:
The hallow'd hour was near at hand: she sighs
Amid the timbrels, and the throng'd resort
Of whisperers in anger, or in sport;
'Mid looks of love, defiance, hate, and scorn,
Hoodwink'd with faery fancy; all amort,
Save to St Agnes and her lambs unshorn,
And all the bliss to be before to-morrow morn.

So, purposing each moment to retire,
She linger'd still. Meantime, across the moors,
Had come young Porphyro, with heart on fire
For Madeline. Beside the portal doors,
Buttress'd from moonlight, stands he, and implores
All saints to give him sight of Madeline,
But for one moment in the tedious hours,
That he might gaze and worship all unseen;
Perchance speak, kneel, touch, kiss---in sooth such things have been.

He ventures in: let no buzz'd whisper tell:
All eyes be muffled, or a hundred swords
Will storm his heart, Love's fev'rous citadel:
For him, those chambers held barbarian hordes,
Hyena foemen, and hot-blooded lords,
Whose very dogs would execrations howl
Against his lineage: not one breast affords
Him any mercy, in that mansion foul,
Save one old beldame, weak in body and in soul.

Ah, happy chance! the aged creature came,
Shuffling along with ivory-headed wand,
To where he stood, hid from the torch's flame,
Behind a broad hall-pillar, far beyond
The sound of merriment and chorus bland.
He startled her; but soon she knew his face,
And grasp'd his fingers in her palsied hand,
Saying, "Mercy, Porphyro! hie thee from this place;
"They are all here to-night, the whole blood-thirsty race!

"Get hence! get hence! there's dwarfish Hildebrand;
He had a fever late, and in the fit
He cursed thee and thine, both house and land:
Then there's that old Lord Maurice, not a whit
More tame for his gray hairs---Alas me! flit!
Flit like a ghost away."---"Ah, gossip dear,
We're safe enough; here in this arm-chair sit,
And tell me how"---"Good saints! not here, not here;
Follow me, child, or else these stones will be thy bier."

He follow'd through a lowly arched way,
Brushing the cobwebs with his lofty plume,
And as she mutter'd "Well-a---well-a-day!"
He found him in a little moonlight room,
Pale, lattic'd, chill, and silent as a tomb.
"Now tell me where is Madeline", said he,
"O tell me, Angela, by the holy loom
Which none but secret sisterhood may see,
When they St Agnes' wool are weaving piously."

"St Agnes! Ah! it is St Agnes' Eve---
Yet men will murder upon holy days:
Thou must hold water in a witch's sieve,
And be liege-lord of all the Elves and Fays
To venture so: it fills me with amaze
To see thee, Porphyro!---St Agnes' Eve!
God's help! my lady fair the conjuror plays
This very night: good angels her deceive!
But let me laugh awhile, I've mickle time to grieve."

Feebly she laugheth in the languid moon,
While Porphyro upon her face doth look,
Like puzzled urchin on an aged crone
Who keepeth clos'd a wondrous riddle-book,
As spectacled she sits in chimney nook.
But soon his eyes grew brilliant, when she told
His lady's purpose; and he scarce could brook
Tears, at the thought of those enchantments cold
And Madeline asleep in lap of legends old.

Sudden a thought came like a full-blown rose,
Flushing his brow, and in his pained heart
Made purple riot: then doth he propose
A stratagem, that makes the beldame start:
"A cruel man and impious thou art:
Sweet lady, let her pray, and sleep, and dream
Alone with her good angels, far apart
From wicked men like thee. Go, go!---I deem
Thou canst not surely be the same that thou didst seem."

"I will not harm her, by all saints I swear,"
Quoth Porphyro: "O may I ne'er find grace
When my weak voice shall whisper its last prayer,
If one of her soft ringlets I displace,
Or look with ruffian passion in her face:
Good Angela, believe me by these tears;
Or I will, even in a moment's space,
Awake, with horrid shout, my foemen's ears,
And beard them, though they be more fang'd than wolves and bears."

"Ah! why wilt thou affright a feeble soul?
A poor, weak, palsy-stricken, churchyard thing,
Whose passing-bell may ere the midnight toll;
Whose prayers for thee, each morn and evening,
Were never miss'd." Thus plaining, doth she bring
A gentler speech from burning Porphyro;
So woeful, and of such deep sorrowing,
That Angela gives promise she will do
Whatever he shall wish, betide her weal or woe.

Which was, to lead him, in close secrecy,
Even to Madeline's chamber, and there hide
Him in a closet, of such privacy
That he might see her beauty unespied,
And win perhaps that night a peerless bride,
While legion'd fairies pac'd the coverlet,
And pale enchantment held her sleepy-eyed.
Never on such a night have lovers met,
Since Merlin paid his Demon all the monstrous debt.

"It shall be as thou wishest," said the Dame:
"All cates and dainties shall be stored there
Quickly on this feast-night: by the tambour frame
Her own lute thou wilt see: no time to spare,
For I am slow and feeble, and scarce dare
On such a catering trust my dizzy head.
Wait here, my child, with patience; kneel in prayer
The while: Ah! thou must needs the lady wed,
Or may I never leave my grave among the dead."

So saying, she hobbled off with busy fear.
The lover's endless minutes slowly pass'd;
The Dame return'd, and whisper'd in his ear
To follow her; with aged eyes aghast
From fright of dim espial. Safe at last
Through many a dusky gallery, they gain
The maiden's chamber, silken, hush'd and chaste;
Where Porphyro took covert, pleas'd amain.
His poor guide hurried back with agues in her brain.

Her falt'ring hand upon the balustrade,
Old Angela was feeling for the stair,
When Madeline, St Agnes' charmed maid,
Rose, like a mission'd spirit, unaware:
With silver taper's light, and pious care,
She turn'd, and down the aged gossip led
To a safe level matting. Now prepare,
Young Porphyro, for gazing on that bed;
She comes, she comes again, like dove fray'd and fled.

Out went the taper as she hurried in;
Its little smoke, in pallid moonshine, died:
She closed the door, she panted, all akin
To spirits of the air, and visions wide:
No utter'd syllable, or, woe betide!
But to her heart, her heart was voluble,
Paining with eloquence her balmy side;
As though a tongueless nightingale should swell
Her throat in vain, and die, heart-stifled, in her dell.

A casement high and triple-arch'd there was,
All garlanded with carven imag'ries
Of fruits, and flowers, and bunches of knot-grass,
And diamonded with panes of quaint device,
Innumerable of stains and splendid dyes,
As are the tiger-moth's deep-damask'd wings;
And in the midst, 'mong thousand heraldries,
And twilight saints, and dim emblazonings,
A shielded scutcheon blush'd with blood of queens and kings.

Full on this casement shone the wintry moon,
And threw warm gules on Madeline's fair breast,
As down she knelt for heaven's grace and boon;
Rose-bloom fell on her hands, together prest,
And on her silver cross soft amethyst,
And on her hair a glory, like a saint:
She seem'd a splendid angel, newly drest,
Save wings, for heaven:---Porphyro grew faint:
She knelt, so pure a thing, so free from mortal taint.

Anon his heart revives: her vespers done,
Of all its wreathed pearls her hair she frees;
Unclasps her warmed jewels one by one;
Loosens her fragrant bodice; by degrees
Her rich attire creeps rustling to her knees:
Half-hidden, like a mermaid in sea-weed,
Pensive awhile she dreams awake, and sees,
In fancy, fair St Agnes in her bed,
But dares not look behind, or all the charm is fled.

Soon, trembling in her soft and chilly nest,
In sort of wakeful swoon, perplex'd she lay,
Until the poppied warmth of sleep oppress'd
Her soothed limbs, and soul fatigued away;
Flown, like a thought, until the morrow-day;
Blissfully haven'd both from joy and pain;
Clasp'd like a missal where swart Paynims pray;
Blinded alike from sunshine and from rain,
As though a rose should shut, and be a bud again.

Stol'n to this paradise, and so entranced,
Porphyro gazed upon her empty dress,
And listen'd to her breathing, if it chanced
To wake into a slumbrous tenderness;
Which when he heard, that minute did he bless,
And breath'd himself: then from the closet crept,
Noiseless as fear in a wide wilderness,
And over the hush'd carpet, silent, stept,
And 'tween the curtains peep'd, where, lo!---how fast she slept!

Then by the bed-side, where the faded moon
Made a dim, silver twilight, soft he set
A table, and, half anguish'd, threw thereon
A doth of woven crimson, gold, and jet:---
O for some drowsy Morphean amulet!
The boisterous, midnight, festive clarion,
The kettle-drum, and far-heard clarinet,
Affray his ears, though but in dying tone:---
The hall door shuts again, and all the noise is gone.

And still she slept an azure-lidded sleep,
In blanched linen, smooth, and lavender'd,
While he from forth the closet brought a heap
Of candied apple, quince, and plum, and gourd
With jellies soother than the creamy curd,
And lucent syrops, tinct with cinnamon;
Manna and dates, in argosy transferr'd
From Fez; and spiced dainties, every one,
From silken Samarcand to cedar'd Lebanon.

These delicates he heap'd with glowing hand
On golden dishes and in baskets bright
Of wreathed silver: sumptuous they stand
In the retired quiet of the night,
Filling the chilly room with perfume light.---
"And now, my love, my seraph fair, awake!
Thou art my heaven, and I thine eremite:
Open thine eyes, for meek St Agnes' sake,
Or I shall drowse beside thee, so my soul doth ache."

Thus whispering, his warm, unnerved arm
Sank in her pillow. Shaded was her dream
By the dusk curtains:---'twas a midnight charm
Impossible to melt as iced stream:
The lustrous salvers in the moonlight gleam;
Broad golden fringe upon the carpet lies:
It seem'd he never, never could redeem
From such a stedfast spell his lady's eyes;
So mus'd awhile, entoil'd in woofed phantasies.

Awakening up, he took her hollow lute,---
Tumultuous,---and, in chords that tenderest be,
He play'd an ancient ditty, long since mute,
In Provence call'd, "La belle dame sans mercy:"
Close to her ear touching the melody:---
Wherewith disturb'd, she utter'd a soft moan:
He ceased---she panted quick---and suddenly
Her blue affrayed eyes wide open shone:
Upon his knees he sank, pale as smooth-sculptured stone.

Her eyes were open, but she still beheld,
Now wide awake, the vision of her sleep:
There was a painful change, that nigh expell'd
The blisses of her dream so pure and deep,
At which fair Madeline began to weep,
And moan forth witless words with many a sigh;
While still her gaze on Porphyro would keep;
Who knelt, with joined hands and piteous eye,
Fearing to move or speak, she look'd so dreamingly.

"Ah, Porphyro!" said she, "but even now
Thy voice was at sweet tremble in mine ear,
Made tuneable with every sweetest vow;
And those sad eyes were spiritual and clear:
How chang'd thou art! how pallid, chill, and drear!
Give me that voice again, my Porphyro,
Those looks immortal, those complainings dear!
Oh leave me not in this eternal woe,
For if thou diest, my Love, I know not where to go."

Beyond a mortal man impassion'd far
At these voluptuous accents, he arose,
Ethereal, flush'd, and like a throbbing star
Seen mid the sapphire heaven's deep repose
Into her dream he melted, as the rose
Blendeth its odour with the violet,---
Solution sweet: meantime the frost-wind blows
Like Love's alarum pattering the sharp sleet
Against the window-panes; St Agnes' moon hath set.

Tis dark: quick pattereth the flaw-blown sleet:
"This is no dream, my bride, my Madeline!"
"Tis dark: the iced gusts still rave and beat:
"No dream, alas! alas! and woe is mine!
Porphyro will leave me here to fade and pine.---
Cruel! what traitor could thee hither bring?
I curse not, for my heart is lost in thine
Though thou forsakest a deceived thing;---
A dove forlorn and lost with sick unpruned wing."

"My Madeline! sweet dreamer! lovely bride!
Say, may I be for aye thy vassal blest?
Thy beauty's shield, heart-shap'd and vermeil dyed?
Ah, silver shrine, here will I take my rest
After so many hours of toil and quest,
A famish'd pilgrim,---saved by miracle.
Though I have found, I will not rob thy nest
Saving of thy sweet self; if thou think'st well
To trust, fair Madeline, to no rude infidel.

"Hark! 'tis an elfin-storm from faery land,
Of haggard seeming, but a boon indeed:
Arise---arise! the morning is at hand;---
The bloated wassailers will never heed:---
Let us away, my love, with happy speed;
There are no ears to hear, or eyes to see,---
Drown'd all in Rhenish and the sleepy mead:
Awake! arise! my love, and fearless be,
For o'er the southern moors I have a home for thee."

She hurried at his words, beset with fears,
For there were sleeping dragons all around,
At glaring watch, perhaps, with ready spears---
Down the wide stairs a darkling way they found.---
In all the house was heard no human sound.
A chain-droop'd lamp was flickering by each door;
The arras, rich with horseman, hawk, and hound,
Flutter'd in the besieging wind's uproar;
And the long carpets rose along the gusty floor.

They glide, like phantoms, into the wide hall;
Like phantoms, to the iron porch, they glide;
Where lay the Porter, in uneasy sprawl,
With a huge empty flagon by his side:
The wakeful bloodhound rose, and shook his hide,
But his sagacious eye an inmate owns:
By one, and one, the bolts fill easy slide:---
The chains lie silent on the footworn stones,---
The key turns, and the door upon its hinges groans.

And they are gone: ay, ages long ago
These lovers fled away into the storm.
That night the Baron dreamt of many a woe,
And all his warrior-guests, with shade and form
Of witch, and demon, and large coffin-worm,
Were long be-nightmar'd. Angela the old
Died palsy-twitch'd, with meagre face deform;
The Beadsman, after thousand aves told,
For aye unsought for slept among his ashes cold

Friday, 27 November 2009

Exodus to London

Migrating birds are pretty smart and their annual migration is a beautiful natural phenomenon. Every single bird take flight twice a year, at exactly the same time, taking exactly the same route; North to South, then South to North. Paradoxically, people are the same as birds. When they flock, they flock all together, all at the same time.

I have been wanting, needing, to take a journey west which would put an end to an end. The last few weeks have been maniac, but tonight is the first night I would come close to booking that hotel and those trains.
Tonight, on Lastminute.com I found the best deal. £229/night for a 5 star hotel with a view to the bay. But, on the hotel’s website, I saw the same room on offer at £159 (though subject to availability) with breakfast, spa, cocktail, strawberry & chocolate thrown in. The cheapest way actually the trains, £47 return. Right, great, I will ring the hotel first thing in morning to confirm availability before booking the train tickets.

So, as I sit here sipping chamomile tea, I log in my email account and I see a blonde nomadic bird heading my way! It’s Allison, who lives in Morocco and she’s making her annual migration to UK to see her family in Cambridge. She wants to make a stop pit in Twickenham, on the same weekend that I had planned my trip west!

Bummer, I've already postponed my trip west 3 weeks ago when four olive birds, from Spain, announced that they are coming to London this weekend. Luckily, they’ve managed to book accommodation somewhere in Westminster, but I’m obliged to take them out for the day. It will be brunch in Chinatown! No surprise as to what’s on the menu, yes; you’ve guessed it, Dim bloody Sum! I’ve planned an itinerary which will include food, culture, glitz and more food. The last stop off would be Fortnum & Maison to have the quintessential English tea and cucumber sandwiches or cream scones at 5. Hopefully, being Spaniards, time will run loose, and we will miss tea altogether.

Alex and his fiancé are also threatening to come before Christmas (to see London’s Xmas lights). You know, I ought to build another shed in the garden, run electrical wire down and install a portable toilet with a neon sign that says…this way -> Leave a note that say, pick up the keys from my neighbours at number 26 and you will find the Wii, Sky TV, the complete Full Monty collection and a bottle of Chardonnay in the TV cabinet.

Jesus Christ! Much as I love having visitors, why it is that they all choose to come at the same time? It is if an angle came in their dreams and told them, that they have to go to London on that weekend!

So Lookatchooing will have to wait, sorry!
I wonder if anyone would put their business on hold for me? Funny, just 2 weeks ago, I classified myself as a mug. A mug, just like Ricky from East Enders.

Arhhhh!  just as I'm ending this post, I notice a missed called from Dean. He's wants to meet up on Saturday night! Great, so my Saturday agenda is as follows: Billingates Fish Market at 6am, Chinatown at 11.30am, Piccadilly till 6pm, Greenwich at 8pm. Bloody hell! Oh, did I mention breaksfast with Chris in Battersea at 9.30am on Sunday?  Get me out of here!!!!!!!

Wednesday, 25 November 2009

Outrageously Overcharged

In July 2007 the Office of Fair Trading brought a case representing 1.2 million people against seven banks and one building society to reclaim unauthorised overdraft fees, totalling £2bn, paid since 2001.
Today the Supreme Court ruled in favour of the Bankers Association, stating that “the OFT could not challenge overdraft charges because it does not have the power to decide whether unauthorised charges are fair”
This is a landmark victory for the high street banks.
Yesterday I received my monthly statement from Abbey National and saw that I had been charged 115.09€ for unauthorised overdrafts in five separate transactions. There were two £30 charges for transactions in supermarkets. One other transaction involved a payment to Boots chemist for a tooth brush which cost £3.59, but I was charged £17.85 by Abbey. In disbelieve, I telephoned the bank immediately and queried the charges. I was advised that is normal banking procedures. This was the conversation that followed:
“In which case, I would like to request that card payments will be automatically declined should there be insufficient funds in my account”
“This is not possible. The card payment system is such that when a payment is made, the system cannot know if you have insufficient fund in your account” the operator replied
“I’m sorry, but that’s not possible. In France and Spain, a card payment is automatically declined should there be insufficient funds, regardless of amount. Surely the UK has a similar system?”
“Sorry Ms Luu, but the card system in the UK cannot do that. However, since you are a new customer and as a good will gesture, we will refund £45.00 for this time”
I said thank you, then hung up
This is complete bullshit! If Spain or administratively chaotic France can have the system, then why can’t the UK? This is purely a is complot by UK’s bankers to earn more in obscure charges.
Now I understand why there are queues of upto 30 people waiting at ATM machines on high streets during busy times! They are avoiding shocking overdraft charges!
I hate to say this, but I agree with the Supreme Court’s decision. Clearly this was defeat foretold. Shoot the damn OFT lawyers who said that they would win. How could they think, for one second, that they or any consumer protection body had the power to dictate what financial institutions charges?
According to OFT reports, "even though 1.2 million claims the overdraft charges, there is a further 8 million people who have paid the charges and not claimed".
It’s nauseating to think that the tax payers have stumped up billions to keep the bankers’ jobs and not to mention pay their bonuses. It’s a real kick in the teeth.
Today’s judgement shouldn’t be taken as a financial hiccup. If a quarter of all account holders have been charged at least once every year for unauthorised overdrafts, then it’s not a matter for OFT. It should become a political issue. Central Office should implement a standardise rule, cap charges or introduce a card payment system similar to that of the continent. Though, today was a victory for the Banker’s Association, tomorrow will be victory for the people.
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Virtual Lives- Unshakeable Past

Apparently I have 16 followers and I’m following 11 people/groups/organisations on Twitter. I didn’t even realise I had a Twitter account. But apparently I do.
So, who are the people following me? Friends, organisations I had contact with in the past, an admirer and my ex lawyer who I had deemed incompetent. Seeing my ex-lawyer on Twitter makes me guilty of all the horrible truths I had said. Perhaps I will write him an email to say………..err….not sure what……… but something nice! After all, his heart was in the right place; however he was totally shite as a lawyer. Second thought, perhaps, I shouldn’t write anything.

What’s apparent is that before the internet, it was too easy to severe contact. If you changed your phone number or address, unless there were mutual friends, there were no other contactable means. Thank god, as there are some people I’d rather not see or hear from. On the other hand, there are people who I wished I’d kept in contact with. I had emigrated abroad and moved homes 4 times in the past 11 years. My one and only black address book was lost during one of the moves. This was before emails were common so the contacts were lost forever.

However, cyber social networking has its drawbacks too. Cutting links is damn difficult these days. I had a close friend who went to extremes. Disillusioned and totally disappointed with the people in his life, he set sail and travelled the seven seas. He severed all contacts with family and friends. No one heard from him. He’d disappeared completely, until he was recently spotted browsing in a nautical fair. Does one really have to go to that extreme just to cut off?

As my friend, Sharon had put it: “In this life there are fuckers and takers”. These people tend to amass a great deal of ‘friends’ in all the network accounts possible: My Space, Twitter, Face book, MSN, SKYPE, Yahoo etc. Fortunately, I can’t think of anyone I know who could be labelled as a fucker. But, takers, yes, definitely quite a few. There’s a Spanish proverb which aptly sums it up: “Les das un dedo, tomaran el brazo!” (You give a finger, they will take the arm).

I had a friend who’s a taker (note the past tense). His woos and woes and his misfortunes got a lot of sympathy from women. He’d collected many of them from work, pubs, travels, friendship sites, dating sites and even sordid sexual sites. In his Face book account, women accounted for 89% of his friends. That’s a lot by any standard. When he was homeless, a female friend put him up in her home for three months. Shamelessly, after he had moved out, he said that he had blocked her on MSN because she just goes on and on. Ungrateful parasite.

Amassing friends from all walks of life in all sorts of places has its advantages. When the takers need something, they will call upon their ‘friends’. Like, when they decide to take a mini trip to another city, they will call upon friends who live in that particular city just to ensure they get a free meal, free drinks or even a free bed. Perhaps, if they play their cards right, they will get all three! They of course, offer nothing, but their charm.

On the other spectrum, a woman who has an overwhelming percentage of male friends on her Face book, may not necessarily take material things, but perhaps emotional. It may be, perhaps she just needs a man to fix the blocked sink or install an electrical apparatus or perhaps she’s insecure of herself and needs admiration from the opposite sex. Who knows?

Some people take offence to blocking or deleting friends from their internet accounts. I used to be like that. I never realised that you could block someone on MSN until last year! It was a prompt I’d never had a need for or even noticed. But now, I have absolutely no qualms in blocking & deleting these takers from my accounts. Not seeing their name every time I log on is actually quite NICE! However, since these takers are shameless and will one day contact you again! No doubt they will have allowed sufficient time to elapse so that the dust has settled and that your anger or disappointment will have turned into sorrow and forgiveness. They prey upon your innate goodness and will work on you until you’re ready to give again. Well, takers…advance warning…...don’t you dare call upon my inbox ever again

Tuesday, 24 November 2009

Air Lifted

The last of the boxes have been collected and will be delivered to my clients across Europe within the next 2 days. All the shipments were air shipped to ensure hasty delivery. All that remains on my desk is the pile of 18 digit tracking barcodes as receipts of shipments. I have informed all the clients that their shipment have been picked up, provided them with the tracking number and a direct DHL website link. That’s the last I expect to hear from them for the next three months. Should the shipments be delayed, damaged or worse scenario, go missing…..I don’t really want to know! They have the tracking number, it will be up to them to chase DHL in their respective country. Many of them haven’t paid me yet, but frankly, I don’t give a damn. I’m 99.9% confident that they will sell everything by the 24th December, so if they wish me to supply again, they’ll pay.

I want to scream a great whopping YIPPPPPPEEEEEEEEEEEE!
Today has been the first day I feel a sigh of relief in months. My shoulders freed of the cast iron weight it  burdened. To celebrate, I had a luxurious bubble bath at lunch time! A birthday present which had been sitting on the bathroom shelf collecting dust. The few grams of dirt that I had picked up in the last few days is all washed away. I feel fabulous, I feel 2 stones lighter. I bounced down Staines road to collect Maxine from school. The gusty wind lifted me into the air with every step I took.

Comparably, this is how someone, with a 9-5 Mon-Fri job, would feel on Friday afternoons. That’s every week! Wow, lucky bastards. Yes, but I have nothing to do for the next two and half months. Well, nothing stressful, just niceties like taking photos of the new collection, research about new trends, look online for decent lightings for the exhibition stand and if I’m feeling creative; bang out a few new designs. I may even give Clemente, my Filipino supplier, a call to see how his stomach surgery went and discuss the possibilities a distributorship for 2011. Oh, most importantly, there’s Christmas to plan! Tree, deco, presents, games, table settings and colour scheme. I think traditional  red and white with an abundance of holly would be fitting. A goose has been fluttering around in my mind since September. Lobster or king prawns for starters served with a tepid....errr not sure what...sauce, but will definitely include chives.Yummy!

Saturday, 14 November 2009

Sublime Languages

Recent bombardments of words in varying forms of sarcasm, recitals, quotes, stanzas, assonances and verses, have worn me out.
It seems that those around me are either editing, copying writing, romanticising with verses, speaking in secret codes more surreal than that of Dan Brown’s De Vinci or they are simply squirting out ill-witted jibbery. Stop! Basta!
Example 1: Love Poem

Noon and the life of the deeply cool shadow
Whose day opens and folds the leaves of dark oak-wood swathes
Where I put us
Where I place us between the sun
By a certain kiss upon your boughs, the place where water meets and is sweeter than the drop of your kiss
between the soft noise of your sleep and of my dreams
It is sweet love tenderly embraced.
Some hath desired the sea
her vision of unlimited brine
The wind
The rising and stopping and throwing and colliding of each wave which is pursued in turn by the storm
grey and foamless
The tides and the groan where the front of the enormous was smoothly rushed forward toward your beauty and the oblivion of your inevitable surety
The line or insanity of the calmness where the lap of the thing upon which the hurricane dances and which is by us observed, is blown and stiffens as rigour
and perhaps in mortis.

Err….you’re suppose to woe the object of your love. Talk of tempest and death doesn’t mark a good beginning. Try again!
Example 2: A Twitter Message
“I love the photo of you in the green jumper smoking the cigarette looking thoughtful (slightly darkened room) most of all - your intelligence and reflectiveness apparent - and - somehow - it seems intimate, as if i've inadvertently strayed into your private domain whilst wondering around
What green jumper? What the fuck are you talking about ?

Example 3: Facebook
I’d posted a comment in reponse to a gay friend’s photo post.

Ingo in the glades of southern Thailand


Jorge:
"Pues por todo un poco, desde luego la cara lo muestra bien claro... y el entorno es increíble.   Qué envidia me das en esa foto leche!!!!"

Van:
"No estoy mirando el entorno! Solamente la criatura!!!!"


Ingo:
"Jajajajaja, pues esto me viene muy bien, animos, jajajajaja es un rió en la jungla en el interior del sur de tailandia" 

Jorge:
"Algún día, si Dios quiere, lo veré...jajaja. Por cierto, a la criatura (como dice tu amiga)   también la veré algún día,  al menos eso espero. :)"
You idiot! You’re gay! And God wants it that way!

Example 4: An Old Friend
"I left the SAS to become a paediatric surgeon. I spent several years saving the lives of orphaned Romanian children. As part of my doctorate I discovered a natural substance which when combined with specialist techniques helped to relieve lower back problems in women and improve their skin tone. I sold this company to a multinational to found a charity devoted to helping Eastern European and Thai women at my very large house. I split my time between this and training to be an art therapist for bald eagles with low self-esteem. Recently I went to Alaska to learn how to breast feed baby seals in the ancient Inuit tradition."
Cutting sarcasm. Ouch that hurts!

Example 5: A Secret Admirer (response to my Candy blog)
“What is blog for? Self-confessionals? Vanity sites? Attention-seeking? 15 minutes of fame? A plea for recognition?”
Twat! You claim to be a Shakespearan actor! Do you read English?
It appears that everyone is communicating on different wave lengths, babbling about blurred subjects, as if the words had been dispersed whilst riding a merry-go-round in fairy land.
It’s hard enough trying to follow the day’s update from an excited eight year old daughter when she exits school. The tales are incoherent; subjects, time, persons and events diffused into a labyrinth of disconnecting sentences. Only an attentive ear and constant who? What? When? Why? can the mystery be resolved.
As much as I enjoy deciphering the language of children, when grown ups do this, it’s extremely baffling. Understanding the courtship rituals of the Great Crested Warbler would be a stroll in comparison.
All I can say is: Come haste with flowers and take me far from this madding crowd!
(Well, if you can’t beat them, join them!)

Wednesday, 11 November 2009

What About the Cows?

As Britain prepares to build ten new nuclear power stations “to combat the climate change and to ensure energy security for Britain in the decades ahead” I quote Ed Milliband, energy and climate secretary.
As the Copenhagen Climate Talks nears, all 197 members who had signed the Kyoto Agreement 1997, promised to reduce CO2 emission, one of the major contributing factors to global warming. Britain, of course, by announcing its plans for 10 new nuclear stations, will not doubt boast that it has and will do its part to reduce CO2 emission. Should Britain be an example for other state members? Is nuclear power the answer to resolving global warming problems?
Suddenly, cows came to my mind.
It was Antoine, a consultant for multinational food production companies, who had pointed out to me the roles of cows in global warming. Even though, I consider myself as a ‘Green Pioneer’ through interest and studies, discovering that the cow methane emission was a greater contributor to global warming than all the world's CO2 emitting industries combined,  left me flabbergasted. It was this talk with Antoine which affirmed that a mushroom farm was absolutely necessary.
What’s bizarre is that as I surfed through the Guardian’s website and typed in key words on search: Nuclear power, Copenhagen, Green gases…..the word cow or methane was never mentioned in any of the articles. When I  typed in Cow, methane, only two mediocre articles came up ‘Tesco Monitors Burping Cows to Measure Methane Emissions' 7/09/2009 and the other ‘Poo Power to the People’ 28/05/2009.
I wondered why this vital fact has never been mentioned in mainstream media.
On an alternative ‘green’ website, I found the following article:-
The whole world is obssessed with CO2.
The focus solely on CO2 is fuelled in part by misconceptions. It’s true that human activity produces vastly more CO2 than all other greenhouse gases put together. However, this does not mean it is responsible for most of the earth’s warming. Many other greenhouse gases trap heat far more powerfully than CO2, some of them tens of thousands of times more powerfully. When taking into account various gases’ global warming potential—defined as the amount of actual warming a gas will produce over the next one hundred years—it turns out that gases other than CO2 make up most of the global warming problem.
By far the most important non-CO2 greenhouse gas is methane, and the number one source of methane worldwide is animal agriculture.
Methane is responsible for nearly as much global warming as all other non-CO2 greenhouse gases put together. Methane is 21 times more powerful a greenhouse gas than CO2. While atmospheric concentrations of CO2 have risen by about 31% since pre-industrial times, methane concentrations have more than doubled. Whereas human sources of CO2 amount to just 3% of natural emissions, human sources produce one and a half times as much methane as all natural sources. In fact, the effect of our methane emissions may be compounded as methane-induced warming in turn stimulates microbial decay of organic matter in wetlands—the primary natural source of methane.
With methane emissions causing nearly half of the planet’s human-induced warming, methane reduction must be a priority. Methane is produced by a number of sources, including coal mining and landfills—but the number one source worldwide is animal agriculture. Animal agriculture produces more than 100 million tons of methane a year. And this source is on the rise: global meat consumption has increased fivefold in the past fifty years, and shows little sign of abating. About 85% of this methane is produced in the digestive processes of livestock, and while a single cow releases a relatively small amount of methane, the collective effect on the environment of the hundreds of millions of livestock animals worldwide is enormous. An additional 15% of animal agricultural methane emissions are released from the massive “lagoons” used to store untreated farm animal waste, and already a target of environmentalists’ for their role as the number one source of water pollution in the U.S.
The conclusion is simple: arguably the best way to reduce global warming in our lifetimes is to reduce or eliminate our consumption of animal products. Simply by going vegetarian (or, strictly speaking, vegan), , , we can eliminate one of the major sources of emissions of methane, the greenhouse gas responsible for almost half of the global warming impacting the planet today

The solution is quite obvious no? Reduce CO2 emissions by all means, but consider if there are better alternatives first. The final paragraph of the 'green wesbite' suggests that we should opt for vegetarianism or veganism. Hmmmmm....I don't think so. The right option would be to reduce consumption of animal products by offering suitable, tasty alternatives.  Plant protein foods  such as seitan & soya have never really made it onto the mass supermarket shelves. Sea weeds, seeds, legumes and even mushrooms are feasible options. Why not invest more money into developing viable alternatives?
Yet as we speak, India and China growing wealth craves for more meat. As we speak, the polar bear population dwindles as ice caps, their habitat, melt away. The race for time is on, well it has been on since Kyoto 1997, but until the central issues of animal agricultures and its alternatives are even mentioned, I fear that it's a race without a finishing line.


Sunday, 8 November 2009

Poppies in July

Little poppies, little hell flames,
Do you do no harm?

You flicker. I cannot touch you.
I put my hands among the flames. Nothing burns

And it exhausts me to watch you
Flickering like that, wrinkly and clear red, like the skin of a mouth.

A mouth just bloodied.
Little bloody skirts!

There are fumes I cannot touch.
Where are your opiates, your nauseous capsules?

If I could bleed, or sleep! -
If my mouth could marry a hurt like that!

Or your liquors seep to me, in this glass capsule,
Dulling and stilling.

But colorless. Colorless.

Wednesday, 4 November 2009

Sam I Am




Saved from the filth and flea infested streets of Sadadell
My mother killed on the side tracks of the road
Our saviour took us to a place of higher planes
Tinky, my deranged sister, and I were taken to a home of an unsuspecting owner
She became our beloved guardian and friend
We lived in a Barcelona high rise, with a flea not in sight
For three long years we had watched the world go by from the faceless facade
Not once did we feel the rain nor the earth beneath our paws
My guardian fed me well and flourished me with much love
Yet my feline soul felt betrayed
My greatest triumph was a blue bottle, caught and devoured. Yuk!
But what choice did we have? Imprisoned within the four walls, flies were welcomed distraction and provided some abstraction
Off we went on a long journey by road and crossed the British Channel
To Twickenham we came, paradise of which, a cat like me, from the streets of Sabadell, can only dream
Trees to climb, fences to mount, window ledges to launch from, sheds to conceal my ambushes. What a warrior I am.
My prey has increased considerably in size; those flies which were once my day’s work have all but disappeared from sight
My new playmates, Moggy and Hamish, are full of fun until they steal my meal
I don’t care for there’s plenty for all
During the darkness of the night, foxes come and forage
They’re scared off me and so it’s okay
What more could a cat like me ask for?
Now I dream of a two legged plump wood pigeon
Now Sam, I, truly, Am